Tuesday, May 1, 2018
The topic for this Blog Hop was deceptively simple, but remarkably complex. I debated for days if I even wanted to sign up and even after I did sign up, I procrastinated up to the last minute to write my post because my self esteem has taken a beating lately and this was not a topic wanted to blog on.
The topic our wrangler, Morgan Drake Eckstein gave us was "What I can (could) teach the world. However, my brain chose to put judgements on this and alter the topic to be, "What I should teach the world and if I don't, I'm a selfish jerk." Needless to say, that was not a topic I wanted to write on so I procrastinated.
I realized as I reflected on the question and my response to it that before I could answer the question, I had to figure out why I was having such a negative reaction to the topic so I backtracked a little and decided to dig into my negativity.
Why am I having such a negative reaction to the topic?
What can I do to come in from the cold?
What else do I need to know?
The Pope/Hierophant showed up to confirm that I am feeling like an outsider and that I feel shunned for my beliefs. There is a part of me that feels like I need to hide who I am or people won't like me. This is deep seated religion from my ancestors talking as I'm feeling shunned for wanting to be myself and for wanting to have my own beliefs. I'm also getting a very clear message that I need to do some deep ancestor work to clear these blockages.
What can I teach the world based on my experiences?
According to the Magician I have all the tools I already need at my disposal. I need to open myself up and trust the gifts that I have been given. I have all that I need within me, I just need to open myself up to the synchronicity of the world and trust that I will be led to where I need to be. I also need to make a plan and start making an effort to do the training that I want to do and to help the world.
What will the outcome be?
According to the Queen of Cups, sharing my experiences with the world and to help others find the way, I will find my way to my own emotional fulfillment. I have to realize that the world is a give and take of emotion and that when I hold in all my emotion, I cannot find the love that I seek in this world.
Wow! Is all I have to say about this reading, there was so much deep and incredibly personal messages here. I will need to spend some time meditating on this, but I have to say I am really glad I chose to do this blog hop.
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