Tuesday, May 1, 2018

Tarot Blog Hop: What I could Teach the World


The topic for this Blog Hop was deceptively simple, but remarkably complex.  I debated for days if I even wanted to sign up and even after I did sign up, I procrastinated up to the last minute to write my post because my self esteem has taken a beating lately and this was not a topic wanted to blog on.

The topic our wrangler, Morgan Drake Eckstein gave us was "What I can (could) teach the world.  However, my brain chose to put judgements on this and alter the topic to be, "What I should teach the world and if I don't, I'm a selfish jerk."  Needless to say, that was not a topic I wanted to write on so I procrastinated.

I realized as I reflected on the question and my response to it that before I could answer the question, I had to figure out why I was having such a negative reaction to the topic so I backtracked a little and decided to dig into my negativity.

Why am I having such a negative reaction to the topic?

The Five of Pentacles from the Radiant Rider Waite stepped forward to answer this question and told me that I feel like I'm an outsider looking in.  I feel like no one will listen to me and that I am an outsider who has no hope of finding my way into the warmth. 








What can I do to come in from the cold?

The Devil appeared to tell me that I need to let go of my fears and accept myself for who I am.  I need to unchain myself and let go of the belief that I am not welcome in groups because I weird or different.  This message was incredibly strong and the juxtaposition between being outside the church in the five of pentacles and the devil could not be more clear.  Even though I have made peace with who I am and have accepted that the Christian church is not for me, there is a part of me that feels judged and who feels like I have to continue to hide my beliefs.  I can hear the negative voices in my childhood tell me that I'm just a crazy pagan, who would listen to me?



What else do I need to know?

The Pope/Hierophant showed up to confirm that I am feeling like an outsider and that I feel shunned for my beliefs.  There is a part of me that feels like I need to hide who I am or people won't like me.  This is deep seated religion from my ancestors talking as I'm feeling shunned for wanting to be myself and for wanting to have my own beliefs.  I'm also getting a very clear message that I need to do some deep ancestor work to clear these blockages.

What can I teach the world based on my experiences?

The Ace of Cups is telling me to let love flow through me and to reject being boxed in by orthodoxy.  The Ace of Cups is telling me to share my story and to help others who may be feeling boxed in by their childhood and their past.  The Ace of Cups is telling me to embrace who I am and what I have to offer the world.  The Ace of Cups is also telling me to embrace myself and to let the healing waters of love wash away the pain in my heart. I also need to not dwell on my problems and to embrace creativity as the release of being creative will help my find my way.




How do I find my way to teaching the world?

According to the Magician I have all the tools I already need at my disposal.  I need to open myself up and trust the gifts that I have been given.  I have all that I need within me, I just need to open myself up to the synchronicity of the world and trust that I will be led to where I need to be.  I also need to make a plan and start making an effort to do the training that I want to do and to help the world.

What will the outcome be?
According to the Queen of Cups, sharing my experiences with the world and to help others find the way, I will find my way to my own emotional fulfillment.  I have to realize that the world is a give and take of emotion and that when I hold in all my emotion, I cannot find the love that I seek in this world.

Wow!  Is all I have to say about this reading, there was so much deep and incredibly personal messages here.  I will need to spend some time meditating on this, but I have to say I am really glad I chose to do this blog hop.

PREVIOUS POST|MASTER LIST|NEXT POST


Popular Posts