At first glance this is about all the things I've lost in my life. It is about letting go of illusions. It is about grieving and moving on. We need to let go of these things that no longer serve us. Release that which no longer your best interest to create the space for new beginnings. Where am I holding on to that which no longer serves me:
- The belief that I will live happily ever after with a certain someone
- My anger over John's betrayal
- Playing the strong survivor
- Playing the victim
- The expectation that John will ever grow up
- The belief that I am unlovable
- The belief that I'm not strong enough
Letting go of all these limiting beliefs will help me to live a beautiful and amazing life.
December 24, 2017
It is amazing as I head into 2018 to look back and realize how much I've grown and how much I truly have let go of. I am starting to truly realize how strong and amazing that I am and that I don't need to play either the victim or the survivor. I just need to be me. I'm not perfect and there are things I could do better, but overall I've realized that I am the only person I really have who will always be here for me so it behooves me to be nice to myself.
Beating myself up and talking down to myself is not and has never been productive. All it has done has lead me to not like myself and to continue to put other people first. I need to let go of all of the negativity and realize how truly amazing I am.