|Six of Air|
There is sadness where there should be tremendous joy. I am at a time in my life where there is a tremendous potential for joy, but I'm feeling depleted and isolated. I'm feeling tremendously alone. The book suggest that I'm finding it hard to find anything to be grateful for and my mind is foggy and confused. This is all so true as I'm finding it difficult to be grateful. I am so focused on the negative aspects of my job that I'm forgetting that I have a lot to be grateful for and have a lot of blessings in my life. I'm also trapped in a place of fear that is not suiting me well at all.
I need to work to turn this around and to greet the new day with a song of gratitude. I have so much to be grateful for:
- I have a job that pays the bills
- I have a beautiful home
- I have kids that are smart and nice
- I have opportunities
- I have money in the bank
- I'm reducing my blood sugar
- I'm starting to eat more healthy foods
December 25, 2017
I'm realizing that these entries were the start of turning things around because even though I started out talking about my sadness and loneliness, I was able to get myself back to a place of gratitude. I never truly understood when people said you had a choice about your attitude and your emotions. I always just thought that your emotions were kind of like the weather and that you just had to deal with them. However, I have started to realize that I can change my emotions and I can choose to be happy. I can also choose to feel each and every emotion and acknowledge them. I think acknowledging the difficult emotions is key. I don't have to act super happy if I'm grieving, but I can acknowledge the grief and also acknowledge the gratitude.