|Five of Fire|
I'm going to be really honest and say that when I pulled this card, I did not want to write about it because frankly I'm tired of writing about anger, disappointment, fear, and all these other painful emotions. I'm tired of sorting through that nastiness. I'm ready to move on and be happy. However, every time I think I'm ready to move on, the crap reaches up from where I think I've buried it. I've worked so hard to move on, but today was full of triggers from losing files that I needed to having to deal with other people's emotional baggage.
December 29, 2017
The one thing that strikes me as I read this is that I have a choice to be triggered or not. I can choose to take on other people's emotional baggage or I can choose to put on a teflon coat and not take on other people's junk. That's a choice I make. One of the best lessons I ever learned from Al-Anon is about not getting mired down in other people's garbage. If someone is having a bad day, I can offer sympathy or support, but I don't have to take on their junk. I'm not always wonderful at it, but I'm getting a lot better.