|Eight of Pentacles|
Book: Seeking success without effort, need to evaluate whether you are in the right job, the seeker is wasting his talents, move forward with a project
Guidance: Move forward on a project
For me, I know this card is not telling me that I'm not working hard enough on my day job because I don't know how I could work any harder. It could be telling me that I'm not working hard enough on Midwives of Change. I have been so busy and so tired that I haven't been able to put the time into things that matter to me. I certainly hope things settle down, because I don't know how much longer I can keep up this pace.
December 23, 2017
I'm still not positive what the message of this card was a year ago, but I made the decision earlier this year to let go of Midwives of Change. I made that decision when I realized that I wasn't living my life for me, but I was using myself as a guinea pig to see what methods worked so that I could write about them. I want my life to matter to me and not just matter to other people.
I struggled with the decision to put my Tarot Journal online because that seemed to be just one more way to live my life for others instead of myself. However, once I committed to Swedish Death Cleansing and realized that putting my journal online meant I could keep the lessons and ditch the hurtful comments and whining, I decided that putting it online was what was best for me. I also established Rules for Readers so that they understand I'm not putting myself out there as a Tarot Guru, but simply living my life.