Book: Denial of inner calling, stagnation, procrastination, fear of change, feeling as something is dying, arrived at the wrong conclusion, greater focus on spirituality, complacency
Guidance: Don't try to change others, take action to move forward
One of the things I'm realizing is that I have to drop the weight. It is literally killing me. A big part of the problem is that my life sucks so much that I don't care if I live or die. I really need to change my attitude and ask for help. The message I got is that instead of asking for love to ask for health and the love will come.
May 25, 2018
I'm still not doing so well with taking care of my health and there are a lot of days where feel like I am committing suicide by sugar as I cannot let go of my need for coca-cola. It feels as if I need it to start and continue my day. I'm also not exercising very much at all and I feel it in my bones. I think part of the problem is that I have a serious and chronic sinus infection, which affects my sleep, which affects my energy level, etc. It is a whole vicious circle. I've gone back to taking the d-hist and I have to say that I am actually starting to feel a lot better. The next step is to get a new air filter for my room as the other one seems to have given up the ghost. I know that the D-Hist and the air filter seriously changed my life before because I started feeling so much better.
The other thing I need to do is find a local acupuncturist because acupuncture helped me so much. However, I'm realizing that maybe I'm not wanting to find a new acupuncturist out of some misguided sense of loyalty to Kyle. However, he would want me to move on and start feeling better. I'm going to call and make an appointment tomorrow.