Friday, October 28, 2016
Daily Draw: Queen of Pentacles
Book: Warmly in a relationship with the earth, high value on stability, domesticy
Guidance: Take pleasure in small daily rituals, love your life
I love this card because it helps me feel grounded in the earth and connected. I feel this way when I do reverse corpse and feel myself in touch with all the good stuff that life has to offer. I am so glad that I pulled this card today because I needed to be reminded of what an amazing place our earth is and what our place in it is.
May 25, 2018
I drove through Lakewood Cemetery today and I always feel so grounded when I go to cemeteries, because I am reminded that nothing I am going through matters all that much in the big scope of things. We are born, we live, and we die. Our job is to live our best lives while we are alive. We need to love other people, be kind to people, eat healthy, and be the best people we can be. Sometimes we fall short of those ideals, but when we do, we need to pick ourselves up and keep trying.
I know that I am not a perfect parent and there are times when I am unkind, when I tease the kids too much, or when I do other things that are not nice, but I acknowledge them, apologize and try to do better. And that is why I am different than the bitch. She would never acknowledge how she hurt me and she would never try to make it better. Even when I sent her a letter and outlined all the ways that she had hurt me, she never responded. I think that hurts almost worse than what she did because it feels like I don't even matter enough for her to apologize to or try to make amends too. She acts like she is so F*ing hurt that I'm not talking to her, but she refuses to do anything to fix the situation.
It is as if she is so stuck in her mentality that she is the "elder" (what a joke) so she doesn't have to do anything or treat me with respect. It is as if because I am her child, I do not deserve respect. That is so full of garbage and the complete antithesis of how I treat Sean and Cam. I know they deserve respect and I know that I am not deserving of respect just by virtue of being their mother. If I did not treat them with respect, I would not deserve respect from them. That is the complete opposite of how I was raised and she cannot understand that way of thinking at all
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