Wednesday, October 12, 2016
Daily Draw: Two of Swords (R)
Book: Stalemate, Catch 22, Difficult Choice, difficult Time, Discernment
Guidance: Avoid premature decisions, embrace paradox, be still and trust
Embracing paradox sums up a lot about my life right now. I have to accept being in Chicago now even though it isn't what I want. I think part of why I fight it so much is that there is a certain conflict in being in Chicago. I know where to eat, I know my way around, and I know people here. For me it is just really hard to move on while I am still here every week.
I know long term I can change things, but short term I have to make the best of it. I have to learn to trust them.
May 24, 2018
What I have realized since I wrote this is that I have to make a deliberate decision to leave Chicago. For the longest time, I've chosen to stay with one foot in each city. However, I'm realizing that what will allow me to connect and build relationships in Cleveland is to actually make a deliberate decision to leave Chicago and to not go back. I also have to accept that I have to leave Scott behind. he has made it pretty clear that he doesn't want to be friends anymore and I need to accept that and let go. Not necessarily what I want to do, but it it is what I need to do.
I feel better and more sure of myself in Cleveland when I am not constantly looking for emotional support from people in Chicago.
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