Book: Strong sense of inertia. Feeling that nothing has been accomplished. Stay with it as there is more to learn. Avoidance of or fear of change.
Guidance: Remove the blockage to transition. Let go and move on. Pray and meditate.
Death reversed pretty much sums up where I'm at today. I'm feeling stuck, helpless, and depressed. I feel as if I will never move forward and never have the love I want in my life. I am such a white picket fence girl. I am all about hearth and home and none of this stuff at work is really important to me. All I really want to do is come home to someone who loves me.
December 23, 2017
I still really want to have someone in my life who loves me to come home to. I know the kids love me, but I want that one person who is always there for me. Despite all that I've been through, I still believe in love and happily every after. However, one thing I have learned in the last year is that work does have meaning for me and I do enjoy it and take a sense of pride in what I do. I'm also realizing how important it is to have gratitude for what we do have in our lives. I may want to have someone, but I do appreciate having my kids, a home to live in, and a job that pays me well. Even though I want love, it doesn't mean I should trash the things that I do have in my life.