|Two of Pentacles|
Book: Balance, trust, playfulness, need to seek balance, calm yourself, keep a sense of humor, you may have two many balls in the air.
Guidance: Conciously seek balance, find ways to balance work and personal, keep your sense of humor and don't lose site of the fact that most things in life are not that serious.
Interesting card to pull and to meditate on. The message that I'm getting is that sometimes I'm juggling and keeping things alive that I should just let go of. There are things that are just not worthy of my time and/or attention. One of those things right now is being pissed at Meg about Gateway. I've said my piece, now I just need to let it go and see what happens. There is nothing that I can do to change the situation today so I just need to focus on what I can control and let go of the rest. Sometimes there are balls that it is okay to drop.
December 23, 2017
I've gotten much better at dropping balls that no longer have meaning for me and that aren't worth my time and energy. Worry is one ball that I've been working hard to let go of. There are so many things in life that I cannot control and spending time worrying about them just doesn't help matters.
My quest for the love of a particular someone is also something I need to drop. I need to quit obsessing and just see what happens. I've spent way too much time and energy focusing on him and I need to let go. That's a big part of the reason that I've been working to let go of Chicago. Going back there keeps me entangled and that's not healthy for me. What will be will be and I need to let it go.
I also need to let go of John. I really do hate him for what he's done to me and how he hurt me, but carrying that crap around is not healthy for me. He will get what is coming to him and what his Karma is. I just need to let go