Saturday, November 12, 2016
Daily Draw: Five of Cups(R)
Book: Return and restoration of hope after recent losses, situation is beginning to turn, feelings of hopefullness
Guidance: Be hopeful, let go of the wounds
There are two meanings of this card reversed and I am torn as to which one is more suitable. One is about the restoration of hope and the other is about the utter loss of hope. There is a part of me that feels hope being restored and ready to move and the other that feels devastated and as if I have no hope at all. Dinner was wonderful, but I still ended up sleeping alone and that hurts. I really and truly want the real deal and I am not sure if I will ever get it and that is devastating.
September 1, 2018
It's been almost two years since I wrote this and I'm not even sure who I went to dinner with. LOL. I still want the real deal, but I have learned a lot in the last two years about the value of being alone and the value of my independence. I've realized that if I had gotten with anyone right after John and I broke up that it would have been a disaster. I was so broken that I would have trashed any relationship with my neediness.
I've come to value myself so much in the last few years and I've learned how to talk myself out of the bad places when I need to. I've learned to take a step back and evaluate what is real and what's not. I find that my thoughts take me down into a deep dark place sometimes, but I can also use my thoughts to get myself out of that deep dark place and back to a place of hope.
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