|Gilded Tarot--Ten of Pentacles (Drawn Reversed)|
Book: Holding on to things you have no use for, disenfranchised and outside the system, unconventional
Guidance: Norms be damned, be unconventional
I'm reading this card as closing myself off to receiving blessings. My intuition tells me at a deep soul level that a relationship with someone loving would be amazing, but I'm closing myself off and shutting that door because I'm afraid. I'm terrified of meeting someone and getting close to them, then having them reject me. This would be even more devastating if it was someone I was already friends with and I lost their friendship as well as their love. I need to let go of these fears and open my heart and that is the hardest flipping thing I've ever done.
After a year of receiving messages from the cards and my guides that I need to open my heart and be willing to take a risk, I think I'm finally ready to do that. I'm embarking on a year of love to focus on opening myself up to love. More about this in another post.