|Ace of Cups|
Book: Purity of emotion, spiritual love, meant to guide as in being drawn along by a feeling, do not run from intuition, peaceful, grateful, receiving love and blessings
Guidance: Accept and feel your emotions
I am in a place in my life where I am emotionally fulfilled. I'm accepting and recognizing the love that is all around me and that's a good thing. I feel as if I am blossoming by surrounding myself by people who are supportive and uplifting instead of gossipy nags.
I never realized how much my upbringing negatively affected me. My mother truly did set the stage for my marriage to John as she trained me to be a subservient nobody and that's exactly what he wanted in a wife: Someone who would do her bidding and not want a life of her own. My saving grace is that he was incapable of supporting a family so I had to work to support us. If that hadn't been the case, I might have lost all of me.
December 28, 2017
Sitting here in my house that only has my name on the mortgage, I'm realizing exactly how much I have broken away from my upbringing as I am not the person I was raised to be. My mother raised me to be subservient and to put everyone else first, but somehow I've overcome that and become a strong and independent woman.
As I write that phrase, I am so glad for Nephthys showing up in my life. I have to be honest and say I was so afraid when she first showed up as she was the epitome of a virgin woman: strong, independent, and confident. I was terrified of being independent as I'd been raised to believe that a woman was nothing without a man, but I am someone all by myself. Although I'd like someone in my life, I can still be complete and whole onto myself without someone.
Thank you so much for showing up all those years ago and taking me under your wing. Thank you for helping me become the strong and independent woman I am today. And I finally know I am independent enough to share my life with someone.