Monday, December 19, 2016
Daily Draw: Four of Cups
Book: Suspicious, reluctant, bored, self absorbed, unable to appreciate goodness, disappointment with the status quo
Guidance: Notice the gift, be open to receive, accept that you are worthy
This card is about getting out of my self absorbed state and being willing to listen to the universe and receive gifts that are being offered.
One of the biggest gifts I have is that my body is still responsive to non-traditional ways of treating my diabetes. Exercise still brings my blood sugar down. For me it is about deciding I want health and being open to healing. It is so easy to turn to sugar for a quick energy hit, but all that does is create a downward spiral because it over taxes my body more and more. I need to accept that I am going to deal with crap for a while while my body heals, but I won't start feeling better until I start listening to what my body truly wants and needs instead of just giving in to the quick sugar fix. I might also need to go back to oatmeal for breakfast. I know why I fell off the sugar wagon before, it was because I was doing all the right things and my blood sugar was dropping, but I wasn't losing weight so I got frustrated.
My real solution needs to be about focusing on how I feel instead of focusing on the numbers on the scale. I did feel a lot better and had a lot more energy, but the minute I start feeling tired I go racing back to sugar and the whole damn cycle starts all over again. At the end of the day, I don't want to die and I want to be here for my kids and giving up sugar is one way to increase the odds of that happening.
July 7, 2018
All of what I said above is true and things that I still need to work on, but what struck me as I read the guidance this go round was to accept that you are worthy. That is something I've had to struggle with my entire life. I've worked hard for everything that I have, but I have never truly accepted that I am worthy just as a human being and that I don't need to prove anything to anyone. I am a beautifully flawed and amazing person just the way I am and I don't need to change to be worthy of having good things in my life.
I think that's why X's friendship is such a blessing in my life. He is the first person that has ever truly loved me unconditionally with no strings attached. He wants nothing from me, but our friendship and that is so refreshing. Yes he can be annoying with his advice sometimes, but he gives the advice because he loves me and not because he is trying to fit me into some mold or because I embarrass him the way I am.
I know there are days when i don't even think I'm worthy of my spirit guides love and guidance.
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