|Three of Pentacles|
Book: Creating and delighting in the process, collaboration, Creating what you envision, skill and spiritual values, spiritual renovation.
Guidance: Cooperate with others, new work from a spiritual perspective.
I love thinking about opening my soul to renovation. To me that speaks of making something good even better. I am finally starting to appreciate the beauty and wonder that is me. I'm appreciating my strengths and my perseverance. I have been given and amazing life and I am so far of how far I've come and all that I've gone through to get here.
However I can also appreciate that my halo is a little dirty and could use some polishing. I know that I have work to do in letting go and forgiving. I'm also realizing I have work to do in accepting healing work as a valid way to spend my time. I sometimes get so caught up in beating myself up for reading a book or reading my tarot cards that I forget that I'm human and my body needs rest and my soul needs this healing work. Sitting here and reading cards and journaling is a valid way to spend my time.
I think I'm jealous because people with addiction get 30 days or so to work on healing and other bruised and broken people are expected to just pick themselves up and move on with no down time. After my divorce, it would have been amazing to check out of life for 30 days and focus on healing. It would have been awesome to have structured workshops on different aspects of healing and to have someone guide me through the process of becoming whole again. I instead I was left to flounder and find my own path. I am so fortunate that I found people to help me and guide me and now I may be being led to create a program to help others. It truly is a sacred duty.
Please guide me to create a program that will help others grow and change. Help me find ways to make people's burdens just a little lighter.
December 29, 2017
The message I've been getting from my guides lately is that I need to focus on me and focus on what is helping me. I can be an example to others to help them heal by following in my footsteps, but it is not time yet to be more active in creating something. I need to do the prep work and build the foundation before I jump right in. I'm really good at jumping right in, but I need to build my website slowly, build some class content because that's fun for me. Continue helping Scott, but I don't need to jump in with both feet right now.