Book; Follow your gut, do not tarry, make your move, acting on a decision, fear of poverty, boredom
Guidance: Don't spoil things over boredom
I'm feeling so lost and lonely right now. I want a simple life with someone who loves me. The problem is that this is not a decision I can make. I have to be passive and that's hard.
January 25, 2017
I've realized over the past year or so that I do not have to be passive in my search for love and I do not have to do the stupid online dating sites either. My job is simply to open myself up for love by eliminating the things standing between me and love. Those things include emotional clutter such as anger and resentment and physical clutter. I'm working on letting go of the emotional baggage and taking steps to meet new people. Those are very positive steps I can make. I'm also working on forgiveness and letting go of the anger. My anger can eat me up sometimes as I think John and my mother both screwed me up, but holding on to that anger serves no useful purpose. I need to let go of the anger, learn the lessons, and move on.