Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Daily Draw: King of Cups

First Impressions:  Emotional control

Book:  Fortunate in your achievements, there are things in your life that give you satisfaction

Guidance:  Be aware of focusing on what you don't have, nurture your emotions

Journaling

I needed this reminder today to focus on what I have instead of what is missing from my life.  I am so blessed that we found my daughter last night, but I really want to hurt the guy who raped her.  However, she isn't dead and that is a blessing.  I was so terrified last night.  I felt like I aged 100 years in the 30 minutes she wasn't answering her phone.

I know that we saved her life by his knowing we were coming.  I have to admit that I am so angry and sad today.  I'm  angry that she gave a stranger a ride, I'm sad that she was hurt, and I'm so angry at him.  However, the overwhelming feeling today is gratitude that she is alive.  I'm grateful that she knows she can call me at any time and that she did.  It could have been so much worse, if the rapist hadn't known that she had people who loved her and were looking for her.

October 27, 2018

It has been a year and I still want him dead.  The case is slowly winding its way through the court system, but as the anniversary comes up, she is getting really anxious and angry and sad.   The worst part is that I will not be here for her.  However, we will figure out a plan so that she feels supported and knows that she is loved.

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