Monday, November 20, 2017

Daily Draw: Two of Swords

First Impressions:  Decisions

Book:  Experiencing conflict between logic and intuition,  battle between head and heart remains unsolved

Guidance:  You have to decide, lock on the decision and decide, pretending it isn't there, won't make it go away

Journaling

I've made my decision.  I'm going to manifest a relationship with X.  I know the risks an I know the potential hurt, but I'm ready to move forward.  Life is not without risk and pain and unless I embrace this fully, it will not happen.  No more wimpy magick that says or something better.  There is no something better.  He is who I want and that's that.  And I'm not going to focus on the downsides or how it will play out, I'm going for it.

November 25, 2017

Making a decision to truly commit and go for it is a little difficult, but I'm ready.  I've been working on letting go of all the excuses I've come up with for it not working and I'm done making excuses.

I am worthy and I deserve happiness.

November 9, 2018

I'm realizing that it truly is because I am worthy and deserve happiness that the relationship with X did not happen.  I'm realizing that at the end of the day, a relationship between us would not have worked.  While he lives in my work world, he doesn't live in my spiritual world and that just wouldn't work.  I've realized that while I was not the desperate divorcee that became a barfly, I was desperate in my own way and chased someone that would have been equally bad for me because I was lonely and had no self esteem.  Now that I am truly valuing myself,  I'm realizing that it is better to be alone than in a relationship that wouldn't work. 

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