Book: What has been, what lives in hidden places, Goddess of the Mother, of the gods, Mother of All, existence killed by her own young.
Guidance: Surrender, but remember who you are; trust your intuition and be open to it, look at things from a different point of view.
Surrender is such a foreign concept to me. I've always been someone who fights to the bloody, brutal end so the thought of surrendering and letting go always seems to me like giving up. However, past experience has taught me that when I do truly surrender to deity, amazing things happen. It is hard though because I always want to snatch back control.
Help me to trust you enough to let go. Let me trust that I a being led and that things will work out exactly the way they are supposed to work out. Let me trust you have my best intentions at heart.
January 1, 2018
I'm still getting used to writing 2018! One thing I have learned in my life is that life does move on and that surrendering means that I don't have to control everything. Over the past few years, my definition of surrendering has evolved from giving up total control and sitting there passively to trusting that I will be led and doing the work I need to do. It's kind of like managing a project, I cannot control how every consultant spends every minute of their day so I need to set the structure and trust them to do what they're supposed to do.
Trust is as difficult of a concept for me as surrender so sitting back and not micromanaging is hard for me. However, when I do sit back and trust others, things work out amazingly well.