|Seven of Air|
Dark Goddess Tarot
Book: Succeeding through ill-gotten gains, hiding in the shadows
Guidance: Think outside of the box, think of another way, work for your own best interests, answer may be found in silence.
The message I take from Laverna is to reclaim what is mine. I spend so much time and energy giving and being for others that I neglect myself. I need to make a concentrated effort to reclaim myself. I also have to acknowledge that there are days when it only feels like taking my life back is stealing because other people do not recognize my sovereignty and only see me in relation to what I can do for them. I need to reclaim myself and life my life for me and not for others. That's easier now than when my kids were little, but it still feels awkward to say no and put my own needs first. It is something I know will continue to be a work in progress.
December 26, 2017
Pulling this card reminds me of the ritual to Laverna that Anna led. I was okay with all the Dark Goddess rituals she led until I got to this one because it was almost as if she took glee in the idea of worshiping someone who was was the patron of thieves. However, over the past few years I've had a lot of time to meditate and reflect. I've also done the meditation to Laverna from The Dark Goddess Lodge and I've come to a different understanding of Laverna and the Seven of Swords in general.
I've realized that sometimes it is right and necessary to be a "thief" as sometimes it is about reclaiming your sovereignty and reclaiming what someone stole from you. John stole so much for me and I'm finally starting to reclaim who I am. He pounded me down so hard that I lost so much of myself. I still don't know why he chose to beat me down physically and emotionally, but I have come back and I've reclaimed myself.
I'm also learning that other people consider it selfish or wrong to stand up for myself and take back my time and my resources. It is not wrong to take back what is yours. In fact it is good and noble to take yourself back to a time of wholeness.