|Seven of Fire|
Dark Goddess Tarot
Book: Rise up or the demon's win, Gods invoke Durga through their combined powers, tiger representing her unlimited powers, working to protect people from misery
Guidance: Know which weapon to use for the fight, know you ground and your position and make a stand, identify your personal demons, do not give up something because it is hard. It will be accomplished if you keep trying
I really love the messages in this card, especially around knowing your demons. My personal demons are low self esteem and feeling as if I always have to buy people's friendship. I get caught up in thinking that if I do nice things for people then they will like e and I've always been that way. I remember back in high school buying gifts so guys would like e. And I did the same thing with John. I thought if I bought him things he would stay. I've learned that if people don't like me for who I am, than that is their loss, but people pleasing is still part of who I am.
My other demon is sugar and it is killing me, but I don't know how to stop.
Messages from my Guides
Yes, you do! Decide to stop. Find a substitute and be done with it. Yes the first few days will be hard, but it is either do this or do drugs and feel the medical industry. You are tough and strong. You can do this.
January 9, 2018
Today was about kicking ass and taking names. I am fed up with bullshit excuses for not doing your job. I'm fed up with people not fucking reading emails and expecting things to be spoon fed. I very clearly said in my email that it was for standard training material. I was a bitch today and it kind of felt good. I'm tired of being nice as it feels like everyone walks all over me when I'm nice.
However, when I take a step back and look at things from a different perspective, I realize that everyone is