Around the time I was contemplating Swedish Death Cleansing, I came across some stories online about the worst/saddest/most disturbing thing people had learned about family members and invariably some of these horrible things were learned when I people read someone's journal after they had died. I made the decision then and there that I did not want my kids reading my raw and unadulterated journals after I died, not because I had big secrets to hide, but because I didn't want them to read something nasty I'd written about them and be devastated. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids dearly, but like everyone else on the planet, they sometimes do really annoying things ad sometimes I write about it.
Deciding I didn't want my kids to read my raw journals after I died and actually doing something about it were two different things because I have no idea when I'm going to die and I can't exactly control what people do after I'm gone. I also don't want to stop journaling for fear of possibly offending someone.
I had originally decided against posting my daily draws on Tarot of Change because they were personal guidance given to me and weren't really for public consumption. However, I decided to go back to the original definition of what a Blog was: a Web Log. Blogs were originally online journals or diaries where people shared their thoughts. However, the more I thought of it I realized that maybe there was a way to have the best of both worlds: I could continue journaling offline, but transcribe my journals online on a regular basis. This would allow me to clean up and remove anything hurtful, but would still let me keep the essence of my journal intact.
The other decision I made was that even though I'm posting a sanitized version of my daily draws online, they are still mine and are written to record my journey. If someone else happens to stumble across my blog and learn from it, that's awesome, but that's not the intent. As I said in an earlier post, I'm not a role model and I'm done trying to be one. I'm willing to help people and guide them, but I'm living my life for me and me alone.