Dark Goddess Tarot
Book: Fire purifies, water restores, powerful and approachable, something new that arises from the union.
Guidance: Situation is improved by providing skill and attention, different feelings require expression, pull the pain out of your soul, seek balance.
Wow! As I pulled this card, I found myself facing Brighid. She was standing behind the flames and beckoning me to step through the forms and to be transformed. She stands there, welcoming me, beckoning me, calling me; but stepping through the flames of transformation has to be my choice. I can step through the flames of love or I can choose to stay where I am. She is telling me that the burning flames of passion will transform me and not destroy me. I realize that I have been terrified that if I allow myself to fall in love again, I will lose all that I am. She is telling me that I will change, but will be transformed.
January 13, 2018
This was the third card in a row I pulled that talked about change and growth. I'm realizing, that I'm tired of the corporate world. I'm tired of all the games, of the need to play nice, of the need to take bullets for the company. I'm tired of it all, but I like my salary and I like the freedom. Part of my problem is that I always lead with my heart. I put my heart and soul into what I do and it's hard when that is for a company that doesn't value what I do. I'm bone tired and weary. I also know that part of the reason I stay is for the benefits that I keep in case I need to go to the doctor or need to seek care. It is difficult to consider being an entrepreneur in this country when the cost of healthcare is so high.
Please guide me down the path I am meant to be on and help me find a way to feed my soul and have the house and benefits I have now. Help me and guide me to the people that it is right for me to meet. Help me to find a way to build a spiritual business while still receiving my paycheck until I am in a position to go solo.