Book: In distress, hope and healing, lonliness
Guidance: Analyze your limitations, there is solace in companionship
I pulled this card as I sat at the beach watching an amazing sunset. It feels apt because I was so lonely. Everyone else was there with other people, but I was alone and it hurt to not have anyone to share this beautiful sunset with. I feel more alone than I have in a long time. I've always taken being alone in stride, but today it just feels lonely.
December 29, 2018
It's so funny to reread this now as the memories that I have of that beautiful and amazing day are not of how lonely I was, but of how connected I felt to the others on the beach. I was one of the most spiritual moments of my life to sit there and watch something as ordinary and as miraculous as a sunset. I was so pleased and amazed that so many other people took the time out of there day to watch the sunset. As I reread my post and how I pulled the cards, it made me wonder if I was lying to myself or if the loneliness dissipated as I felt myself surrounded by the larger crowd. I'm going to choose to believe that the sense of connection outweighed the lonliness.
Here is what I posted on Facebook that day:
I had one of the most spiritual experiences of my life tonight surrounded by about 50 strangers. I drove down to Carmel after work and spent some time wandering around. After an amazing dinner of fresh caught seafood, I wandered down to the beach.
There were about 50 people there, some quietly playing, others sitting and watching the water, and others just wandering around. Pretty soon, the most amazing show on earth started as Sul began to journey down to touch Mama Yemaya. Her bright light laid down a glittering trail upon the water.
As she sunk closer and closer to the waves, people got more and more quiet and everyone turned their faces toward the sun. As she slowly faded, a sense of oneness filled the crowd as we all watched the golden orb sink beneath the waves.
It was only when we could no longer see her that people began to gather there things and walk away with the reverant hush still filling the air.
I found it pretty amazing in this day of movies, TV, and all the other technical distraction that 50 people gathered on a beach on an ordinary Friday afternoon in April to watch the sunset.