Monday, May 27, 2019
Deliberate Draw: High Priestess
Book: Standing in solitude and silence, guarding the mysterious realm, speaking through dreams
Guidance: Come into a place of stillness, receptivity, and self awareness
This is an image that it is easy for me to lose myself in. I can imagine myself stepping into the body of the high priestess and standing naked and unafraid under the crescent moon while I draw down the goddess herself. I love the way she is standing in a stone circle and her shadow is before her as the moon lights the path. The more and more I clear out the mental clutter in my life, the more I realize that we are connected to the goddess and our intuition at all times, but sometimes we let life get in the way and we feel disconnected.
One of the biggest changes I've noticed in my life as I have moved from randomly choosing tarot cards (although we know there is nothing random about it), is that I've felt more connected to my intuition. I've felt more attuned to the world around me and to my inner world. It has also helped me to let go of things in the past that I didn't even realize I was fiercely holding on to. I've also come to see that when I obsess over things, that means I'm holding on to some pain surrounding them and that obsessing about them is my way of trying to work out the pain. It isn't an effective way, but it is a way that my psyche attempts to work things out.
One of the things I realized over the weekend when I was reflecting on the Virgin of Guadalupe who is my goddess of the week is that I was angry at myself over my mother calling me a drunken slut when I told her I was going to AA. At that point in my life I was so beaten and broken and afraid that I did not tell her to fuck off and that I deserved to be treated with respect. Instead, I absorbed her ugly words and became even more broken. I think there is a part of me that has thought for thirty years that I was a sell out because I needed her and dad to support me through college. However, when I look at myself with loving kindness, I realize that I was too broken and hurt to do anything else. I had also been raised to be very sheltered and to respect my elders at all costs. I saw how my mother continued taking care of her mother despite the abuse my grandmother heaped upon her. In reality, there is nothing else I could have done.
As I reflect upon this card, I realize that this is also a card of standing tall and being whole within yourself. It is a card of knowing that I am worthy and knowing that I am enough, just as I am.
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