Thursday, May 23, 2019
Deliberate Draw: The Tower
Book: Having our self delusion torn away, release from a stagnant condition,
Guidance: If you haven't learned the hard way, chances are that something major needs to shift, be prepared for guidance from unexpected sources
Sometimes when we do not have the courage to take a leap of faith out of a bad situation as the Fool asks us to do, the world crumbles around us and we are left in a pile of rubble that has us questioning the meaning of our life. For me this happened when my now ex-husband announced four months after a life altering heart attack that he was moving out. I was devastated because I had spent 22 years twisting myself into knots to be the person he wanted me to be. I felt as if my security was ripped of its foundations and I was left floundering. I was no longer a wife and it felt as if all of my worth had been taken from me.
Fast forward nine years and I'm truly happier than I've every been in my life as I own my own beautiful home, my two kids live with me, I have an interesting and challenging dog, I have two pit bulls playing and bringing me joy, and I'm comfortable in my own skin. I'm not trying to fit myself into someone else's idea of who I should be. As I look back on my marriage, I realize that it was an angry and hateful place to be and not a place of love and support. My ex-husband's undiagnosed mental health issues meant that he was incapable of being loving and supporting. I didn't realize exactly how on edge and stressed I was for most of my marriage and the first few years after my divorce, it felt uncomfortable to be peaceful and not have that stress in my world. However, I've become acclimated and I've learned that peace is a wonderful place to be.
As I reflected on this card yesterday, the twin towers came up over and over and over. I'd catch snippets on the tv about the twin towers, two of my assignments for class talked about the twin towers, and those images played over and over on the tv and in my head. It made me think about whether there was a greater cosmic meaning to the towers than a single act of hate. I've realized they were about shaking us out of our complacency and forcing us to confront the ugliness and hate in our world.
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