Monday, June 10, 2019
Deliberate Draw; Chariot
Book: Journey of personal growth, challenge of self mastery, intense confidence and determination
Guidance: Balance your inner and outer realities and maintain equilibrium
The chariot has always been about emotional control for me since I first start reading the tarot. It always felt as if my mind was one of the horses and it wanted to go straight ahead down the path of logic and the other horse was my wild emotional horse that threatened to derail me. It has only been recently that I've learned to have some emotional control and not break down at the slightest little thing. Being a consultant has been really good for me in that arena because when you are standing in front of a room and people are throwing hard questions at you, you need to be able to play it cool and not break down.
The other thing I'm realizing is that it is much easier to have emotional control when you are in an emotionally stable environment. Living in the emotional tinderbox that was my marriage meant that every spare ounce of energy I had went to just surviving and to catering to John's emotional needs to try to keep him on an even keel. There was no energy to tend to my own emotional needs or the emotional needs of the kids. His temper and his victim mentality were a big black cloud over every house we lived in and that made it so hard.
Emotional control still is not easy for me and there are days I really have to think my way out of situations and remind myself that whatever is happening isn't permanent and that I do not have to react to every little thing that happens. I'm learning to be much better at responding instead of reacting and that has helped me so much in maintaining emotional stability. A lot of times by the time I have calmed down and really thought things through, I don't even feel the need to respond because the emotional storm has passed.
In a lot of ways, emotions really are like storms because they can come out of no where with the least little thing setting them off and they generally pass. Sometimes I need to look at my emotions and work to take care of them, but other times I just need to take a deep breath and remind myself that this too shall pass.
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