Monday, July 29, 2019

Deliberate Draw: Seer of Cups

First Impressions:  Contentment, secrets, working hard

Book:  Discovering self love and the genuine capacity to love another

Guidance:  Spend time alone journaling, dreaming, or exploring nature

Journaling

Today was a learning day for me as I realized that emotional intelligence doesn't mean I always think perfectly or don't think of acting in self defeating ways, but it means that I am self aware enough to pull back and look at the behavior and choose a different way.  I am one of the most impatient people on the earth and I want things to be settled immediately.  However, the truth of the matter is that the world does not revolve around me and things that I think are important and urgent are usually just important.

For me the Seer of Cups serves as a reminder that I can know all my flaws and still be able to love myself.  In the past, I've always beat myself up for every little flaw.  However, I've come to recognize that every single person on this planet is flawed and being flawed does not equate to being useful.  I can be flawed and still love myself.  And other people can be flawed and still be lovable.  Cam is the biggest slob on the planet and Sean gets hard headed and stubborn but I still love them.

The other challenge for me is that I don't take the time to show my body the love that it needs and eat healthy.  I am so tired all the time that eat sugar and other unhealthy foods in order to get some quick energy, that then triggers a downward spiral because that makes me sicker, but then I crave more sugar, etc, etc.  One of the things I really need to work on is understanding that giving in to my cravings is not being kind to myself, it is actually hurting me.



Gratitudes

I'm grateful that I got time to work today
I'm grateful for John's appreciation
I'm grateful for Scott's note
I'm grateful for the good call around ECP
I'm grateful for dinner with the kids
I'm grateful for a walk with the fam


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