Saturday, August 3, 2019

Deliberate Draw: Queen of Pentacles

Note:  There will be a slight overlap between decks as I have pulled almost every card in the World Spirit Tarot.  I will be maintaining my commitment to the WST by beginning a new series where I pull the Major Arcana card and related minor cards.  However, I wanted to get Autumn off to a good start by beginning my pulls with the Lisa de St. Croix deck.

First Impressions:  Opulence, being grounded, love

Book: Surrounded by the riches of the earth, embodiment of the earth

Guidance:  Enjoy the senses and share with others

Journaling

Even though the highs are still straying into the 80s here in Cleveland, it is beginning to feel like Autumn.  The last week, I've felt a shift in the air as the nights are getting chillier, the flowers have that wild and crazy vibe I always equate with the last days of summer, and the stores are selling back to school supplies.  This time of year reminds me of the summer that Luke and I spent living on the North Side of Chicago.  John and I had separated earlier in the year, then I'd gotten let go from my job because of my erratic behavior after our separation.  Luke and I had a lot of time to wander around Chicago and I remember walking in our Andersonville neighborhood and seeing all the wild and crazy flowers.   I was sad, but Luke gave me a reason to go on as I had to get up and feed him and take care of him.  He was my reason to live and my lifeline that summer.

I can't believe it has been two years since he passed away (July 30, 2017).  I remember that day so clearly as the night before he had been insistent on sleeping upstairs with me even though he hadn't gone upstairs in a few months and had slept on the couch.  When I got up in the morning, he couldn't make it down the stairs and Cam and I had to put in him a blanket and carry him.  We ended up taking him to the vet and making the humane decision to euthanize him.  His last act of agency was to lay down in the sun so he felt it on his face.  After we called Sean so he could say goodbye, Luke died with his head on my leg and looking at Cam.  We were brokenhearted, but we knew it was the right thing to be.

This will always be a time of endings and beginnings for me

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