Friday, September 6, 2019

Deliberate Draw: The Chariot

First Impressions:  Moving forward, keeping your eye on the prize

Book:  Card of movement and victory, symbol for a journey of self discovery and worldly ambition

Guidance:  You are well on your way to achieving your ambition, keep up momentum

Journaling:

It's funny but when I travel for my own reasons, I feel like I'm able to let go of all the things that are weighing me down and am able to focus on who I really am at my core.  Being someplace else away from my stuff and all the weirdness of everyday life, really helps me to focus on what matters to me and on who I am at my core.  Being here in the woods with the dogs and Cam makes life simpler and I can focus on the beauty that is all around me and on the fact that a lot of the stuff that I do on a day to day basis doesn't matter so much.  What matters is learning, loving, and being true to myself.

The question for me is how to get to a life where I can live my essence every day and not have to deal with all the weirdness and ugliness that comes with my day to day life.  How do I get to be the introvert that I am at my core instead of the extrovert that I pretend to be in my day to day life?  How do I get to where I can focus on what matters to me instead of what matters to other people?  How can I get to the point where I am truly me and not who everyone else thinks that I am?  I don't have the answers to those questions, but I know that if I keep asking those questions and keep being true to myself, I will find the answers.  In the meantime, I'm going to enjoy hanging out in the woods, cooking hot dogs over a fire, and just being true to my own nature.

I chose the chariot because it is a symbol of moving forward and it is a way to blaze a trail from where I am and who I am to who I want to be.  I don't yet know how to get there, but I will figure it out.  I also chose the chariot because it reminds me of Clark's reaction to the Amish buggies and how astonished he was to see a "big hoof dog" pulling a cart.  The look on his face was so priceless and that's a memory that I will cherish.


Gratitudes

I'm grateful for the nice drive down
I'm grateful for the cozy cabin
I'm grateful for snuggling with Wendy
I'm grateful for the yummy Whoppers
I'm grateful for the amazing smell of the woods
I'm grateful we got on the road in good time

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