Sunday, September 22, 2019

Deliberate Draw: Page of Wands

First Impressions:  Creativity, Imagination, Daydreaming

Book:  Youthful energies creating an alternate reality

Guidance:  Transform an old paradigm into something new and playful

Journaling

This card is a reminder that I need downtime in my life to be creative and to come up with unique solutions.  I've been so busy lately that I haven't let myself take time to just be and it's made me short tempered and made me feel trapped.  It's also had me feeling very overwhelmed.  I feel like there is just so much to do that I don't dare take anytime to just walk in the park, smell the flowers, or just be.  I've been pushing myself to just do, do, do and it seems like I'm working 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.  I know part of it is because I chose to take 4 courses this semester which is kind of an insane course load for someone working full time, but at the time I signed up for those courses, I didn't realize that OCM would explode and I'd have more work than I can handle. 

I was sitting on the couch today trying to work on a paper and I just couldn't do it.  My brain could not do it and I realized that I was overwhelmed with everything that was going on and that it is perfectly okay that I can't do everything at once and that I really need to be honest with myself about what is and is not realistic.  I also need to pace myself and not expect that I am going to have everything done the day it is assigned.  I would love to do that, but it isn't realistic and it is perfectly okay to not be a kamakazi about work.  I can do a little bit every day and it will all get done.

Gratitudes
I'm grateful for the beautiful sunflowers
I'm grateful for the awesome pork chops
I'm grateful for snuggling with Wendy
I'm grateful for sleeping late
I'm grateful for taking time to meditate
I'm grateful for the mandarin oranges

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