Thursday, April 30, 2020

Daily Draw: The Star and Eternity


It sometimes amazes me how well the cards I pull go together.  In this instance, the Star from The Lightseer's Tarot is telling me that this is a time of healing from traumatic events and that my soul purpose is being laid out while Eternity from The Journey Oracle tells me my path is being laid out in front of me in glittering stardust.

What I find most interesting about this combination is that Chris-Anne in the book for The Lightseer's Tarot says "She sends a message of divine timing and renewed expectations, and she guides you to reach for that string of serendipity and faith."  How much more serendipitous could it be to have the star card show up all glittery and "stardusty" and another card that talks about following the trail of stardust.  I got shivers when I pulled these two cards as each felt like a reaffirmation of the other.  However, while some equate serendipity with chance, I believe that when we have faith and do the work, serendipity happens.

I've also realized over the years that faith isn't just in the mind, it also has to take the form of action and of being willing to continue to connect even when there are no results.  Faith means showing up and praying and meditating most every day, it means living a life that is in line with my values and continuing to do the right thing even when it is hard.  We are living in hard and uncertain times and it would be easy to stop giving to charity, to stop buying high quality food, and to take a million other measures that would represent fear.  I'm making a deliberate choice to not be afraid and to choose to believe that what I put out there will be returned.  That doesn't mean that I'm being stupid and spending wildly, but I am working to balance prudence and faith.

Another part of the Star card that was interesting to me is that this represents healing from trauma and that is something that is always important to me.  My word for this year was heal and what I've been learning is that for me healing means opening my heart and being willing to listen to what I'm being told, even if it isn't something that I want to hear.

Wednesday, April 29, 2020

Daily Draw: Nine of Swords and Loss


This was an interesting card combination as I pulled it as I was thinking about how sad I was to be leaving my job and moving on and about how afraid I was that I wouldn't do well at my new company.  I literally had those thoughts, then pulled the cards.  What I loved about these cards is they matched what I was feeling, but gave me a very hopeful and thoughtful message.  The Nine of Swords from The LightSeer's tarot  is all about nightmares and perceiving things are a disaster when they really aren't.  This card is a reminder to set worry off to one side and focus on the positive.  One of the things that I remind myself of when I'm feeling like no one will like me or I don't know what to do, etc.  is to remind myself that my new boss and my new team has an incentive to want me to succeed.  They want me to do well so that they do well.  They would not have hired me if they thought I was going to fail because that is way too much work for them.  Everyone wants me to succeed and they are going to be rooting me the whole time.  I have to remind myself of that when I start to beat myself up and think poorly of myself.  I also have to remind myself that it will take a while to settle in at Nestle and that that's okay.

Once I've looked at things and faced reality, the Loss card from the Journey Oracle reminds me that it really is okay to let myself grieve and let myself be sad and grieve if there is really a loss to be grieving.  All the work I've done on grief and loss this year reminds me that it really is okay to let myself feel what I need to feel.  I don't have to be superwoman.

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